Some people live for this day. Some people dread it beyond belief. As I have never had a significant other, I don't give a shit about it any more this year than the past ones. And next year, when I'm still blissfully independant (alternative statement to SINGLE...kind of like when people say, 'oh yeah, I'm a merchandise consultant'...and you're like, "ummm, no, your a miserable cashier. don't you forget it, bitch.")
THIS Valentines day got off to a bangin' start because my FAVORITE band's album came out for FREE so I was freaking out early. And I fell in love with the music, not with any person...haha, oh fuck my life hahahaha.
BUTTTTT...I've begun to wonder this. About 'soulmates'. I believe everyone has ONE. You might not end up with him, but he's out there. I'm terribly afraid of not finding him in time. There seem to be so many people getting married and engaged now (most definately the stage in our lives :college.) that I wonder if all the couples are soulmates. Or have they just gotten together by default or convenience. I hope not. And as many people are getting married, I know of a few couples who are getting divorced. Clearly, they did not exhaust the search for thier soulmate.
How do you KNOW? I'm assuming your heart sings in any relationship, but is it a more beautiful song in a relationship with a soulmate? Gawd...I hope mine is really obvious. Wherever you are....
Its hard not to get anxious about relationships when seemingly everyone is dating somebody else or is gettin' hitched. And while I REALLY love being single, still, I wonder all the time where my soulmate is. Is he dreaming about me right now? Does he have my image envisioned in his head, his 'dream girl'? Will I fit his expectations and wildest fantacies perfectly, or will he have to tweak me? (Gawd, I hope not. I will not change for anybody...) And I just wonder where he lives. What his favorite song is, or his favorite national park. It's just comforting to know that he's restless for me too....
Aaaaaaaah, sorry for the emotionally draining blog. Haha.
I hope you have found your soulmate. And if not, be patient. He or she IS out there :)
Love love love you.
Hannah
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